A beggar of love…

Sonam was struck with the new number rattling him to pick it up in front of crowds of his friends in the room. He did it and went out to keep his friends undisturbed and too that to him. He was surprised to hear a familiar voice from the other end of a call, which that reminds him of familiar but unscreened. He tries to recollect who the girl could possibly be and to his able, that was out of reach. He could find no ways rather than to ask her,
Sonam, “sorry, I couldn’t remember you”
Form other end, “can you guess then?”
Sonam, “are you Tashi, then?” (Tashi is his classmate friend)
Other end, “no, I am not. It could possibly mean that you have forgotten me.”
Sonam, “no, its not that I have forgotten, I am not able in this very moment. Can you suggest me
any clue then?”

He was kept silent for few more minutes with certain clues but yet he was not in a position to break the wall to recognize her. Then at last, he pleaded with no hope of convincing her of who she could be.
Sonam “am sorry la. I couldn’t, even with this given clue”.
Other end, “sorry too la. I didn’t expect this from you la. Anyway, am Deki calling from
Thimphu. I came here last …”

That was the call unexpected and which that never thought and dreamt of. But the call has now circum the world of his peace and he was innocently being dragged to their forgone life memories and he could heard no more words from other ends, yet still under conversation. He was lost in the thoughts of past, how happily they were once in the blue moon. From that day, starts the world of sharing the feelings and once again creeping into an action of active but hidden love… he tries every means to convey her about their once love and no doubt he bears the same instinct of love that he had.

He apologies her of not being able to remember her and nevertheless, she accepts that because they were away for nearly six years. Then he would make a call every now then besides financial crisis through landing the help from his supportive friends. They desire to go for the long talk until the harsh of the bar of account balance could stop them. Nonetheless, she too begged sorry for having said without realizing the facts of time they were apart for. She too feels the warmth of their togetherness through sharing but wants to get out of the trap once she got into…what that days could have been and how they are related and to the Zeist why she wants to get out of the pitfalls of whom? This is the story…

Sonam and Deki were neighborhood and close relatives too. They were born and brought up in the tiny village of Trashi Thangjey, Jomodung, under Samdrup Jongkhar Dzongkhag. Deki is two years younger to Sonam and one year junior to him in studies. Date backs to those days and of two innocents lives, they were enjoying the fruit of true relationship as their parents were. But more, two fathers of an innocent have agreed to each others view that they would let Sonam and Deki get married. With that, they even called the two buds as their respective in-laws.

Unfortunately, when Sonam was in three and Deki in two standards, she left the school. That gave a hurt blow to Sonam’s companionship. Yet from the bud, they were true to themselves in keeping their true image.

When Sonam was in seventh standard it would possibly mean that he is quite grown up realize the facts of life could be. Deki too in her own way, she was prettily grown. She became the eye catcher and center of attraction for every youth that pass her but Sonam became the eye sour to every passer by as there was a relation between the two. Yet Deki was determined to be with Sonam.

But meantime, Deki left to Phuntsholing with one of the head of Arm force not that she got married to but as a baby sister or to take care of the baby. That created a big uncertainty of their future being together. Then there is no information between the two and no communication gap could further widen, Sonam got his studies in other school.

After two years, the shocking news pears through Sonam’s heart. What news that could be? The news is very short an as simple, “Deki got married… Deki got married… Deki got married…” With whom and where she… does not seem to be mattered but what’s about their once relation, could hunt the memories of Sonam. “A death in the living”, he describe to himself. He was left with no idea to whom and what he can ask but only to wait until he sees her back again.

Three years later when Sonam was in tenth grade, he was joining his parents during winter vacation in the village. Unexpectedly and more over without any news of her arrival, in one of the fine morning, two of them were of the platform of a water tap, both in a rush and busily brushing their teeth. There he was fixed for sometime. He was left with no words she too. He could sense her appearance, features, styles and all the uniqueness that she possess before were all lost and accumulated every inch, a new and so fashionable. With those changes, he could not believe her as Deki, but he dragged his ragged memories and pleasant feeling of her facial expression could remind him of, that she is Deki, his once beloved. They share their feelings through sight but could not speak from either side. They had the feelings of strong desire to share the thoughts gathered all this time but favored with circumstance as they are now individual. Within no time, they were followed by many people in fetching water.

Sonam is poisoned with food of love and lost his appetite. His only mother, worried about the cause of Sonam’s disease. He is damned sure that she cannot be his all time to come because she is married but he had a hope that he could at least talk to her to get relief off their love.

Time hastily came for Sonam to return for next session of busy classroom schedule. That cruelty of time got them departed without having a word being shared. Since then, Sonam got no information of where she lives and what she does, but rumors could create it, she got divorced with her husband.

Meantime, Sonam was in eleventh standard, continuing his studies. Till date he got no information in whereabouts of Deki. He enquires about her, to her relatives but none of the enquirer is in the position to satiate and quench the thirst of his desire in knowing about her. He was left with no choice but rather then to go with what comes on the way to his journey in his short life.

Fortunately or unfortunately, Sonam’s rough road to life’s journey has now paved with coming in contact with Tshering. To him, he took this as an impractical happiness engraved in their soul to rest his arm in the absence of Deki. But that took a zest tack of opportune in leading one to one in the greenery of other side of the bridge. Situation demands Sonam to think more then what he does. While Sonam couldn’t decide the path he wants to take, Tshering wants him to follow her. Yet Sonam didn’t come to a conclusion with Tshering’s decision because of the thought that there might be any pitfalls on the way to smooth journey of life.

Tshering is pretty looking girl in neighborhood village to Sonam. But they have neither heard nor seen each other until when Sonam met her on the way to local festival (cham) which is grandly celebrated in that locality. A first person he met and that opens their heart to both ways. From the day onward, their love grew firmly in an enclosed but yet disclose to everyone. The moment became too intimate to two fellows and that made them shared everything with utmost keeping no boundary. Such relation misleads the growth of truth and happier walks of life into eves and flows. That twist is too intensive and dense for this two extremer and befalls a sorrowful pleasure to two creatures.

In 2006, Sonam was in class twelve. He sensed and realized that education means everything to and got his socks pulled up to his primary duties in the school. That matters much and he achieved a good grade in mid term exam. He scored the marks ranging from nineties to seventies and ranks himself third position in the class. His work and studies were appreciated by every teacher and by all his friends.


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